I told you so...

I told Tom we were going to have to cut the counter top at an angle...He didn't believe me. His brother knows "everything", and said we would be fine.

We ran out of counter top. Why? Because we ended up having to cut it at an angle...

I told Tom when we bought this damn house that I wanted a new light in the dining room. He said we would have one before our housewarming party...on August 15th....

The old one is still there as we speak.

I said it would be nice to have a light above the entry way. There is still a gaping hole where the light should be.

I hate men. I want me house put back together ASAP! Honestly, having his brother do all the work was a bad idea. It did save us thousands of dollars in labor costs. However, our kitchen looks like CRAP-OLA right now! It would have been easier to hire someone and just have it DONE.

I hate men. I hate my house. Next time? We're buying a brand spakin' new house. I'm done with this renovation crap.

Never again...

My Sister

I have two sisters. One is 16, one is 19. I also have a brother who is 18. They all have the same dad. (I have a different dad, but he was never in the picture. )The older one is Cassandra. We have never really been super close. But we're still sisters and we love each other, or so I thought.

I moved out of my mom's house when I was 16. We had a falling out of sorts. So I wasn't around as much as I could have been. But I still called Cassandra and e-mailed her all the time. I was always there for birthdays/Christmas, etc. As she got older, she started fighting with our mom over EVERYTHING. Truth be told, Cassandra is very moody. She thinks she is better than the rest of us. She is sooo much "smarter." (Even though I constantly remind her my ACT score was higher than hers!) She's into black, baggy clothes, anime, and stretching her earlobes. Total opposite of a girly girl. But we all grew used to her, that's just who she was. I guess she felt like she never fit in. But truth be told, she wasn't making much of an effort herself.

Her dad was never a part of her life. He and my mom divorced when I was in 3rd grade. He was supposed to take his kids every other weekend, for a couple months in the summer, holidays, etc. He never saw them. He claimed he couldn't afford to drive up and see them (2 hours away.) He's a total tool and I've always hated him. If you were a REAL man, you would find a way to make the 2 hour trip to see your kids. The younger two kids eventually learned to stop looking for love and support from their dad because they were tired of being let down. Cassandra kept hope and love alive for her dad. Her senior year of high school her dad started sending her money and gifts. He also got her a cell phone. (After the cell phone she had thru my mom got taken away because of bad behavior/bad grades. Nothing like going behind her back, huh?)

Even when my brother attempted suicide he never showed up until 2 days later. Nice, huh?

I always had a gut feeling once Cassandra graduated and went to college she would cut us out of her life. She blamed us for everything that went wrong in her life. But in her eyes, her dad and his family was perfect. It finally happened at my housewarming party of all places. I'd been telling Cassandra for months that she better be at my party. I mean, I only buy my first house once! She assured me she would be there numerous times. The morning of the party she showed up at my house at 8am. WTF? The party didn't start until 2pm! She told me that she only had an hour then she had to leave because her dad needed her help that day.

So, basically, she slapped me in my face and basically told me that I was not important enough. Being her sister and BUYING A HOUSE isn't as important as helping her dad clean his apartment?! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?!

I told her to come back later that night when she was done "helping her dad." She showed up around 9pm. She asked my mom where her calculator was, if she found it after she moved out? Then she came up to me, gave me a hug, and stormed off.

That was the last time I saw my sister. The next day she blocked me from her facebook, changed her number and her e-mail. She sent me one last note that said as long as I have our mom and the other siblings in my life, she wanted nothing to do with me. If I wasn't on her dad's side, then I wasn't allowed in her life. She hasn't spoken to me, my mom, or anyone else on that side of the family since that August night. I was shocked at first, and obviously hurt. She is going to miss EVERYTHING. She won't be in my wedding, she won't meet my first child, won't be there when our grandma dies (who is in very bad health...) etc. I cried and was numb. I lost a sister. I had to grieve.

But now? Of course I'm sad she chose her pathetic, low-life, scum of a father over us. But at the same time, that was her choice. She is an adult. And apparently, she is nothing but a heartless bitch. F*ck her. I miss her everyday but if she is so cold to cut out everyone in the entire family then I'm not missing much. If she changes her mind, I'll welcome her back with open arms. But I am d-o-n-e being sad over someone who doesn't deserve it.

My mom asks me weekly if I've heard anything from Cassandra. Every week I have to tell her No and it breaks her heart a little bit more to realize her child cut her out of her life. For what?! Because they didn't get along when she was a teenager? PLEASE! I hated my mom when I was 16 too. I even moved out!! But you grow up, realize parents aren't perfect, and you move on. It's not like our mom was on drugs or hit us. She was a stressed out, single mom. I don't agree with everything she has done either. But at least she was THERE. And that's a hell of a lot more than I can say about her "father."

Hump-Day!

Is it Friday yet?! I'm so excited for this weekend because it's Halloween!!! I LOVE Halloween. It's seriously one of my favorite times of the year! Last year a bunch of us all rented a party bus and took that around. I was little red riding hood & Tom was the big bad wolf! ;)

Halloween 2008

I'm not sure what we are going to do this year yet. Not a lot of our friends are going out this year. We might try to go out with another couple, or there is a house party we were invited to also. I'm not sure yet. I wish people were more into it this year like they were last year! Oh well. I am dressing up and doing something either way! This year I am going to be a sexy pirate! I'm pretty excited, I think it's going to look great! I still need to get some black boots to complete the outfit though.

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Monday night was fun. We went out to dinner with my mom & sister. Then we came back and played on my wii fit for awhile. We also got our countertop in! It looks really pretty with the cabinet color. Tom's brother is coming down on Friday to install them and install the sink/dishwasher too! Yay! I haven't had a sink since July! It's about time!


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Sexy Back

I hate Mondays. To overcome this, I had a pumpkin cappuccino for breakfast. :) Yum! I also got a call this morning saying my sister & mom are coming over right when I get off work tonight. They had to come down for my sister's dentist appt (3 hours away!) and they figured they would stop and have dinner with me. This means now I have to leave work at least an hour early in order to have enough time to clean my house before they get there. They need to think my house is ALWAYS clean & tidy! Grrrr to last minute notice!!!

I am super sore today! I got my treadmill put together on Saturday and I used it for 45mins both Saturday & Sunday. And today I can't walk without hip pain/soreness. Great. Maybe it's a good thing I have to take a night off due to the family coming over tonight. I will rest it and get back to the workouts tomorrow.

Working out again was great! I felt so strong and in control. I missed it! It also gives me a chance to clear my head and focus on my music and the beat of my feet. Are there songs that always remind you of a certain time in your life or a certain person?

The song "Sexy Back" (don't laugh, it's good for grooving on the treadmill!) always reminds me of the guy, Jordan. I met Jordan in the summer of 2006. It was 5 months after Brian and I broke up and shortly after I met my current boyfriend, Tom. (I was still dating around, and hadn't fully committed to Tom yet) Jordan was funny and soooo good looking! Dark hair and dark eyes...and he had a great personality. I always had fun with him. He was always telling me how beautiful he thought I was, and how amazing I was. He treated me like a princess.

He had a downside though. And I hate to admit this, but he was broke. He was a car mechanic still living with his parents. He was also very immature at times. He also had no plans on moving out of his parents house in the near future. I went back and forth hundreds of times. Do I pick Jordan or Tom? And when it came down to it, I didn't see a real future with Jordan. Tom was more stable, more "husband quality." Obviously the money thing wasn't the only thing that swayed my decision. But it was the biggest reason. Not that Tom is rich by any means, but at least he can take me out to dinner without me having to pay for it every time!

Every time I hear that song I wonder what happened to Jordan, if he's happy. When I picked Tom over him, he vowed to never speak to me again because I broke his heart. (Even though we went out for 2 months and I was never officially his g/f.) and I still wonder if he's still living with his mom and dad. Haha.

Blog Award

I got this blog award from Miss Northern Belle. She is a great fashionista with a pretty cute puppy! Thanks!

The rules:
1. Answer with 5 answers.
2. Tag 5 friends.


1). What were you doing 10 years ago?

-Was 14 and a freshmen in high school
-Started dating my first boyfriend
- Fell in love for the first time
- Was in the school musical
-Was getting horrible grades because I was too distracted ;)

2). What 5 things are on your to-do list for today:

-Clean my dirty house!
-Do laundry!
-Workout
- Watch Desperate Housewives
-Watch Bridezillas ;)

3). Snacks you enjoy:
-Cheese Its
-Wheat thins
-almonds
-ice cream
-popcorn


4). Places You've Lived:

-Minneapolis, MN
-Duluth, MN
-St. Cloud, MN
-Proctor, MN
-Cloquet, MN

5). What are 5 Things you would do if you were a billionaire?

-Buy tons of new clothes & a Coach purse!!!
-Sell our starter house & buy a new (bigger) one!
-Pay off all my bills, Tom's bills, and our families bills.
-Finally travel all over the world!
-Donate to cancer research & animal welfare organizations

I tag all my followers, all seven of you! :)

Treadmill

My treadmill got here today!! That beauty right there is my new Proform cardio tracker! :) I spent all night updating my ipod and Tom will be putting the treadmill together bright & early tomorrow morning! I can't wait! I really miss working out on a daily basis! (I know, weird right?)

Now I just have to get in shape again and pick out my very first 5k to run this spring!

Wordless Wednesday

My "almost niece" (Tom's niece) Katie