I've always known I am an emotional eater. But this weekend I realized what emotions trigger it the most. #1: Lack of control. Planning a wedding should be the one time in my life when I have the most control over things, right? After all I am planning MY wedding how I like it?! Ha! WRONG! Every single person has an opinion on things and I can't make everyone happy. In fact, I don't feel like anyone is excited about our wedding because they are too caught up in all the little details. Hell, I'm not even excited about my wedding because all I deal with everyday is complaints/suggestions/opinions from everyone else! I haven't even been able to enjoy my engagement so far! My weigh-in on Friday went well (always posted on my side bar, fyi) but this weekend it was a struggle to keep my eating in check. I feel like I have NO control over this wedding. My family is being complete jerks about everything. My mom even said she is NOT coming to my wedding dress appointments this Saturday! So I guess I have to find my wedding dress by myself? Gee, that's ALWAYS how I pictured it would be. Anyway, my point is I HATE not having control over the situation. And it's a constant struggle to let things be, and relax instead of stuffing myself with food to "fill" that void I currently have.
I WILL overcome this. It's just a constant struggle.
P.S. I am so grateful at how Tom is handling this whole situation. He is being incredibly supportive of me. Even when I act like a basket case and cry pretty much every day over my stupid family!