Monday, January 11, 2010


It's Monday. Boo. I got a lot done this weekend, but I still have a ton to do, and I need another 2 or 3 days to accomplish it all!

I've always known I am an emotional eater. But this weekend I realized what emotions trigger it the most. #1: Lack of control. Planning a wedding should be the one time in my life when I have the most control over things, right? After all I am planning MY wedding how I like it?! Ha! WRONG! Every single person has an opinion on things and I can't make everyone happy. In fact, I don't feel like anyone is excited about our wedding because they are too caught up in all the little details. Hell, I'm not even excited about my wedding because all I deal with everyday is complaints/suggestions/opinions from everyone else! I haven't even been able to enjoy my engagement so far! My weigh-in on Friday went well (always posted on my side bar, fyi) but this weekend it was a struggle to keep my eating in check. I feel like I have NO control over this wedding. My family is being complete jerks about everything. My mom even said she is NOT coming to my wedding dress appointments this Saturday! So I guess I have to find my wedding dress by myself? Gee, that's ALWAYS how I pictured it would be. Anyway, my point is I HATE not having control over the situation. And it's a constant struggle to let things be, and relax instead of stuffing myself with food to "fill" that void I currently have.

I WILL overcome this. It's just a constant struggle.

P.S. I am so grateful at how Tom is handling this whole situation. He is being incredibly supportive of me. Even when I act like a basket case and cry pretty much every day over my stupid family!


Whitney said...

Oh my goodness, girlfriend. I am sooo soooooo sorry! This is just horrible. I really hope your family stops with the drama and remembers that this is YOUR day, this is about the LOVE shared between you and Tom.

Wishing I was closer! I would totally go wedding dress shopping with you.

Hug and love from Maine!

Jenni said...

Oh you poor dear! I had a little bit of that, but I set my mom down and told her that I appreciated her input and would ask for it, but that spencer and I really wanted to plan our wedding together and make everything fit the way the two of us wanted it to...things have been great ever since.... Good luck sweetie!

Nicolasa said...

Like Jenni said, I think you need to sit someone down and tell them that this is your special day and that you and Tom are going to plan it how you want it. I think it would be best if you keep plans to yourself for now, let them simmer down and adjust to the fact that it is YOUR wedding and not theirs. I am sorry you don't have people who are just as excited as you are!

Morgan said...

That really sucks everyone is giving you a hard time about this weddin, you deserve to enjoy every minute of this! I'm glad Tom is helping you through this and being supportive though..sounds like a keeper! ;)

Kristin said...

It will be over before you know it. I remember being so stressed and then the big day came and it was over in the blink of an eye!

Jamie Pickle said...

So sorry you are having to go through this. How not fun! Just remember you are doing this for you (and Tom), everyone else will get over it eventually.