Friday, January 16, 2009

Round 2

I just found this blog post from my youngest sister... She was writing to our brother... It broke my heart...

wtf is wrong with you?! you feel unwanted and unloved? look again boy, you have a family that cares so fcking much about you and you go and do this kind of sht?! this is your third time putting ppl who are closest to you and care about so much through hell again! why dont you understand that this isnt your time to leave.. not yet. your only fcking 17 yrs old! you have your entire life ahead of you! fck cc! she aint worth it. shes a worthless peice of trash or only brought our family drama. I blame myself for introducing her to you. If you didnt meet her then you'd probablly be happy and not doing this kind of sht. seriously, open up to someone! It helps to get all of this off your chest and just vent! Your not unwanted kid! You have your family, friends, and your pup who loves you more then the world! why dont you understand?! What do we have to do to make you see that its not worth killing yourself over? huh? tell me.. tell us what we can do to keep you alive! You dont relieze how fcking depressed i get when you do this or when I think about you doing this?! Patrick, it tares me apart and i cant think right! your suppose to be my big brother and be there for me, like I am for you. This sunday, I was going to pay for both of us to go sledding at young life. do you know how much fun that would have been?! doing something together.. It would have made my day cause we would actually be getting along again. If you left this world, Im not sure what I would do. I wouldnt care about life anymore.. I couldnt get the energy or motavation for anything. plz, im begging you, dont do this!! you can make better choices!


Doesn't he see what he is doing to our family?!?!

2 comments:

rachel said...

my heart is breaking right now for you and your family...

Ophelia said...

:( I'm so sorry hun...

He doesn't see what he's doing because he's so involved in himself and his own pain. You just want to take him and shake him! If I were you, I'd be printing out and documenting each *episode*. If it comes down do it, (depending on your state's laws) you can probably have him hospitalized via the court system since he clearly presents a danger to himself.